Die With Me ( an email from Rhoze )

As I put the razor to my skin,
I feel the adrenalin,
the pain is a sudden rush to me,
as the blood falls to the floor
I see my pain and worries disappearing.
I hide my scars in fear of what you may say,
but without you these scars will not exist.
My love, my life, my reason
I sit here and bleed.
My smiles, my tears,
my heart tares more and more.
You deny your love, I deny my pain.
The pain I feel when you’re not by my side.
Some call it love I call it suicide.
The razor can only go too deep,
a person can only bleed so much,
but the pain never ends.
My nights are cold, my arms are empty
The cuts cover up the pain,
My smile covers up the hurt
As you walk along too blind to see my hurt
the days get harder
the nights never seem to end
I fake a smile and wipe my tears away
I forget the truth.
For when I am with you it feels so right.
Without you I find myself lost and confused. Broken and torn.
Kiss my pain away,
Wipe away my blood filled with tears,
I long for you to save me